When I turned forty (November 2010), I was brutally smacked with the feeling that I wasn’t living my life fully. I wasn’t even living a life I truly loved. Don’t get me wrong. There are several aspects of my life that I adore, BUT… (There is always a BUT.) This is my life, my one, single, solitary life, and I don’t want to let one more fraction of it pass me by. After crying on and off the whole day of my birthday, I picked my bawling self up and began to strategize how to make my life satisfying, significant, and stimulating to me.
This is not as easy as it would seem. I began by asking myself questions and making a list. (I really do talk to myself a lot.)
- What do I really want to do?
- What makes my spirit dance?
- What quickens my heart?
- Where do I want to go?
- What makes me feel satisfied? Significant? Stimulated?
- What have I been putting on hold until after I had children?
- What have I been suppressing and squelching because people around me may not approve? Or they may think that I’ve lost my mind?
- What inspires me?
- What is my passion?
- I know I used to have dreams & goals. Do I still have them? What are they?
Now is the time. My main list is long and filled with adventure. However, I found myself constantly adding to the list, so I broke it down into several smaller lists. I have lists for everything from family and finances to travel, religion, and adventure. (I didn’t forget to include my goals as a librarian, also.) On my “friends” list, I have descriptions of the kinds of people by which I want to be surrounded. I smile inwardly thinking about the different women in my life, all inspiring women. Age doesn’t matter. I believe they are all in my life for a reason. We support each other, laugh, cry, or sometimes sit silently together. Sometimes they come in groups (work friends, running friends, golf-widow friends, exercise friends) or sometimes they come unaccompanied. I feel a distinctive bond to each and every individual friend, and I am grateful to have each in my life.
Running. After trying to run a Susan Komen 5K Race-for-the-Cure in October 2010, I became enamored with running. Running ended up on a list. I started the “Couch to 5K” program with one of my best friends and we haven’t stopped running since. So far, we’ve only run 5K & 10K races, but we plan to run a half and full marathon.
Personal Life. I’ve been married to the hub for 15 years. He’s a great guy even though he personally doesn’t like to run. The impressive thing is that he supports my running and all of my crazy lists.
I am a librarian at a junior high school and before that I was a teacher for ten years. I was also a dance instructor for several years.
Now is the time. Start enjoying the journey.